I have reached the levels of pathetic and desperate rather quickly

WARNING:The following post will be extremely random. Proceed with extreme caution at your own risk.

Today I'm in the mood for change. Not just today actually, but these past days. Ehh like a few weeks.

I need something different. I need to not do the same things over and over. 

 Does everyone at some point in their life say this? Probably. I guess I should explain myself. 

**Please don't wonder how I came up with this little example...because I don't' know myself. It popped into my head and I'm like "okay I'll go with it." **

Imagine a piece of paper. Blank. Now imagine the entire thing covered with small smiley faces like this :) 

The smiley faces are kinda cute and interesting by themselves, right? :) Admit it, one smiley face...makes you smile. At least it does for me. I smile easily. Okay back on track here...So the entire paper is covered with something which, by itself, is a little cute and fun, but if you had to read through the entire thing it would get very boring, very fast. 

Y'all be like

(I didn't feel like looking harder for a gif that made more sense than that last one so ta-da. That's the crappy kind of lazy writing I do.)

I feel like my life is like that right now. I do semi-interesting things sometimes, and some really fun things. Like hanging out with my besties Mary and Shaniqua ;) Some things, like work, that aren't that interesting but I get money which is good. All of these interesting-ish things, when I string them together, seem very ordinary and blah to me. I don't know, I guess it's hard to explain. 

I feel like I've been doing the same things with ALL the same people for so long that I really need to go somewhere, or do something, or meet someone, from a totally different walk of life.I need some cul-tcha! (which is culture how my mom says it) NEW YORK CITY! That would work. Gotta meet me some people like this--

 Just kidding, that's weird. I'm sorry about that. Here, cleanse your mind of that weirdness.

Kellan thank you for being here today. I really appreciate it. 

What was I talking about?

 Oh yeah, my life. As usual. I think I need some spice. My life is not quite cracka-lackin. It's like a piece of bread with no butter, no jam, no cinnamon and sugar, or cream cheese. Heck, it's not even toasted. It's just bread. Okay by itself, but altogether boring. I am going crazy with these weird examples and metaphors. Help me.

Good advice, thank you

 I am seriously in love with this song. 

If it was possible to be in love with a song this would be it for me as of today. Please listen to it for me. 

It is kinda describing my mood as of right this minute...

Okay so I want to change something. I want something, anything, in my life, to be different than it is now. I could:

1.  Meet some awesome new person and learn stuff from them that I never knew before
2. Visit a new place. Or any place, really. Just somewhere with sights and sounds that i'm not used to seeing and hearing every single day. 
3. Get a boyfriend. My Prince Charming!!!!! Yeah, yeah I know God is picking him out for me, but to quote my best friend ever, "I'm ready whenever He is." 
4. Make a new friend
5. Ehhh I got nothing else now

 To be honest, I don't feel like I do anything meaningful or helpful to anyone. And I feel that as of right now, If someone were to look at the accomplishments of my life, there would be like two things on the list. And to be honest (again), I can't think of a single one right now. Granted, that may be due to the fact that I am dead tired, but at any rate, there aren't many things I've actually done. I need to to something. Any suggestions? Seriously though...comment anything. I LOVE reading comments!  You might even say I cherish all of the comments you lovely reading people leave me ^.^

I really can't think of anything else to say for right now, but I guess you get my idea. I can't remember if I had a point to all of my somewhat unconscious writing so i'll give you one here.  Make every second of your life matter. 

•  When people look at you and even if they only meet you for a few minutes, they should be able to tell who holds your heart. 
• Don't spend every waking moment trying to impress people. AKA guys. (Or if you're a guy, then girls.) (guys don't read this part) GIRLS: let's face it, most guys we see out on the street aren't worth our time. There are a butt-load of jerks out there. I believe that there's only one person who will be perfect for you and that is your Prince Charming, and just freaking be patient. 
• If you feel like I do right now, do something about it. Be intentional about meeting and introducing yourself to new people. Maybe they really want to meet someone like you too!
• Be crazy.

 Do things you've never done. Even if it's as random and small as taking a bike ride through the woods, going sailing, doing a color run, baking strudel, getting a mani-pedi, or starting a journal. Just do something to be different.

 And this song changed my life <3 That was a bonus song for you today. You're welcome.

K love you and please, not to sound pathetic and desperate, but please, comment something sometime so I can have fun seeing who actually reads this ;)

XO Charlotte